I really did love life, I just wasn't very good at it.
Jonathan Fera. Nineteen. Born and raised in Milwaukee, WI. Studying Public Relations at the University of Wisconsin-Whitewater. One among the fence. Content with loneliness. Liberal. Atheist. Coffee and cigarettes. Flannels. Pabst. I post about all of my fanboy problems, TV show problems, and ghetto girl problems. Get it get it.
"There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't because I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone, because what if you learn that you need love and you don't have it? What if you like it and lean on it? What if you shape your life around it and then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is death ends. This? It could go on forever."
Catching Elephant is a theme by Andy Taylor
Band: Bright Eyes
Favorite song(s): Road To Joy, Hot Knives, Take It Easy (Love Nothing), The Calendar Hung Itself, Jejune Stars, A Triple Spiral, At The Bottom Of Everything, No One Would Riot For Less, Lover I Don’t Have To Love.
Favorite Album: I’m Wide Awake, It’s Morning.
Favorite Lyrics: “The sun came up with no conclusion, flowers sleeping in their beds. This city’s cemetery’s humming, ‘I’m wide-awake, it’s morning’.”
“Yours is the first face that I saw, I think I was blind before I met you. Now I don’t know where I am, I don’t know where I’ve been, but I know where I want to go.”
“Oh, I’ve made love, yeah, I’ve been fucked, so what? I’m a cartoon, you’re a full moon, let’s stay up.”
“I wouldn’t waste another thought on what is fair and what is not. The Quinceañera dress she bought was unstitched, with bullets.”
Seen them live?: Once :3
Band: Panic! At The Disco
Favorite song(s): Hurricane, Time To Dance, I Constantly Thank God For Esteban, Pas De Cheval, Trade Mistakes, Stall Me, I Wanna Be FreeShe Had The World, London Beckoned Songs About Money Written By Machines, Ready To Go.
Favorite Album: A Fever You Can’t Sweat Out
Favorite Lyrics: “We must reinvent love.”
“You’re a regular decorated emergency, the bruises and contusions will remind me what you did when you wake. You’ve earned a place atop the ICU’s hall of fame, the camera caught you causing a commotion on the gurney again.”
“Swear to shake it up, if you swear to listen. Oh, we’re still so young, desperate for attention.”
“You’ve never been so divine in accepting your defeat, and I’ve never been more scared to be alone.”
“Genius only comes along in storms of fabled foreign tongues. Tripping eyes, and flooded lungs, northern downpour sends its love.”
“I don’t love you I’m just passing the time, you could love me if I knew how to lie, but who could love me? I am out of my mind. Throwing a line out to sea, to see if I can catch a dream.”
Seen them live?: Ten times.
Band: Manchester Orchestra
Favorite song(s): Alice & Interiors, Where Have You Been?, I Can Barely Breathe, I Can Feel A Hot One, Everything To Nothing, Pride, Colly Strings.
Favorite Album: I’m Like A Virgin Losing A Child
Favorite Lyrics: “You’re turning skin into a dirty secret. I watched the beauties, watched the fire, and the fire burn the beauty in their eyes.”
“The bottom’s gonna bury us anyway.”
“I’ve been trying hard and you’ve been dying hard for years now. Well I swear I did it all, I’ll always be my best flaw.”
“You can’t believe without fear.”
“You move awfully quiet now, and I still feel you everywhere. You told me this has always been worth living, but what’s really worth living anymore?”
Seen them live?: Twice.
Band: Mayday Parade
Favorite song(s): If You Can’t Live Without Me, Why Aren’t You Dead Yet?, Ocean And Atlantic, Take This To Heart, Save Your Heart, If You Wanted A Song Written About You, All You Had To Do Was Ask, Black Cat.
Favorite Album: A Lesson In Romantics
Favorite Lyrics: “But what’s holding me back is the thought of time we never had, my world’s hanging by three words that I can’t bear to say.”
“Save your heart for someone who leaves you breathless, and I know that you’re scared, seems like someone said you had it in you.”
“And you dropped the note and we changed key, you changed yourself and I changed me, I really didn’t see us singing through this. Then you screamed the bridge, and I cried the verse, and our chorus came out unrehearsed. And you smiled the whole way through it, I guess maybe that’s what’s worse.”
“Does this deafening silence mean nothing to no one but me?”
“I can’t forget you, I know you want me to want you I want to. But I can’t forgive you, so when this is over don’t blow your composure baby.”
Seen them live?: Eleven times.
Band: My Chemical Romance
Favorite song(s): Cemetary Drive, To The End, Heaven Help Us, Disenchanted, Cancer, This Is How I Disappear, Planetary (GO!), Save Yourself I’ll Hold Them Back, The End, Bulletproof Heart.
Favorite Album: Three Cheers For Sweet Revenge
Favorite Lyrics: “We could lose ourselves, and paint these walls in pitchfork red.”
“You’re just a sad song with nothing to say, about a life long wait for a hospital stay. And if you think that I’m wrong, this never meant nothing to you.”
“If you look in the mirror and don’t like what you see, you can find out firsthand what it’s like to be me.”
“So raise your glass high, for tomorrow we die.”
“You’re a heart attack in black hair dye, so just save yourself and I’ll hold them back tonight.”
“Hold your heart into this darkness, will it ever be the light to shine you out, or fall and leave you stranded?”
Seen them live?: Three times.
Band: Brand New
Favorite song(s): Failrue By Design, Seventy Times 7, Mix Tape, The Archer’s Bows Are Broken, You Won’t Know, Millstone, The Boy Who Blocked His Own Shot, Okay I Believe You but My Tommy Gun Don’t, At The Bottom.
Favorite Album: Your Favorite Weapon
Favorite Lyrics: “Ask me what’s it like to have myself so figured out. I wish I knew.”
“And even if her plane crashes tonight she’ll find some way to disappoint me, by not burning in the wreckage, or drowning at the bottom of the sea.”
“They say you need to pray if you want to go to heaven, but they don’t tell you what to say when your whole life has gone to hell.”
“You are second hand smoke, you are so fragile and thin. Standing trial for your sins, holding onto yourself the best you can. You are the smell before the rain, you are the blood in my veins.”
“If looks could really kill, then my profession would be staring.”
Seen them live?: Once.
Band: UnderOATH
Favorite song(s): Moving For The Sake Of Motion, In Regards To Myself, Too Bright To See Too Loud To Hear, Down Set Go, You’re Ever So Inviting, It’s Dangerous Business Walking Out Your Door.
Favorite Album: Define The Great Line
Favorite Lyrics: “We’re nothing but hollow vessels in search of what makes us alive.”
“Everything, everything is leaving me wondering. I hate that I’m questioning you’re everything, everything. This is how it seems to me, I’ve drowned myself in self-regret.”
“It’s so funny how we see things so clear when we have no time left to live.”
“Reach in and grab a hold of me, I’m so scared that I’ve started to slip. They say that I’ll never change, I’ll prove them wrong, prove them wrong.”
“I’m a half-wit boy, cracking a smile and wearing it all on my sleeve.”
Seen them live?: Four times.
Band: Silversun Pickups
Favorite song(s): Kissing Families, Growing Old Is Getting Old, The Royal We, Catch & Release, Rusted Wheel, Well Thought Out Twinkles, Sort Of.
Favorite Album: Swoon.
Favorite Lyrics: “Misery inspires.”
“We can laugh about it now, we hope everything works out. Be careful how you lick your wounds, believe that change is coming soon.”
“Seasons always shift too late, spent too much time now on paths sideways. Everything that is connected and beautiful, and now I know just where I stand.”
“I’m waiting and fading and floating away.”
“Watch how our star behaves, we’ll all roll in our graves. Sink with every word, while all their backs were turned.”
Seen them live?: Three.
Band: Dashboard Confessional
Favorite song(s): The Good Fight, The Brilliant Dance, Hands Down, Again I Go Unnoticed, Am I Missing?, Rooftops & Invitations, Alter The Ending, The Widows Peak, Even Now, Saint And Sailors, This Bitter Pill.
Favorite Album: The Places You Have Come To Fear The Most
Favorite Lyrics: “The words are hushed, lets not get busted, just lay entwined here, undiscovered. Safe in here, from all the stupid questions.”
“I catalog these steps now, decisive and intentioned, precise and patterned specifically to yours. I’m talented at breathing, especially exhaling, so that my chest will rise and fall with yours.”
“Hope has sprung a perfect dive, a perfect day, a perfect lie. A slowly crafted monologue conceding your defeat.”
“Please send me anything but signals that are mixed, ‘cause I can’t read your rolling eyes.”
Seen them live?: Four times.
Band: The Rocket Summer
Favorite song(s): So, In This Hour…, Treasures, Around The Clock, Pull Myself Together (Don’t Hate Me), Hey!, High Life Scenery, Brat Pack.
Favorite Album: Do You Feel?
Favorite Lyrics: “I’m giving up and I’ll take my bow, and focus on my treasure forever. Yes, I know that my treasure is heaven.”
“And you see it’s hard for me to breathe, when I get all worked up with these feelings. And I don’t know exactly how it is, that we can be so mad we consider to not exist, and we both know there’s so much love clenched within our fists.”
“When dark clouds cover the sky, like there’s no hope, you are the light. You tell me to live.”
“Am I alive or am I just dying inside just to get by?”
Seen them live?: Six times.
Band: Lily Allen
Favorite song(s): Everything’s Just Wonderful, Friend Of Mine, 22, Cheryl Tweedy, Shame For You, The Fear, Not Fair.
Favorite Album: Alright, Still
Favorite Lyrics: “I wish had qualities like sympathy, fidelity, sobriety, sincerity, humility. Instead, I got lunacy.”
“It’s sad but it’s true how society says her life is already over. There’s nothing to do, and there’s nothing to say. Til’ the man of her dreams comes along, picks her up and puts her over his shoulder. It seems so unlikely in this day and age.”
“Oh no, it’s not the life I chose, but I guess that’s the way that things go.”
“I am a weapon of massive consumption, and it’s not my fault, it’s how I’m program to function. I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror, I’m on the right track, yeah I’m on to a winner.”
Seen them live?: Nope :/
Band: Black Eyed Peas
Favorite song(s): Shut Up, Gone Going, Don’t Lie, Alive, Disco Club, Anxiety, Pump It, Someday, XOXOXO.
Favorite Album: Monkey Business
Favorite Lyrics: “You make me feel alive.”
“And I really think you ought to know the truth, because I lied and I cheated and I lied a little more, but after I did it I don’t know what I did it for. I admit that I have been a little immature, fucking with your heart like I was the predator.”
“If you never know truth, then you never know love.”
“Let’s paint the town, we’ll shut it down. Let’s burn the roof, and then we’ll do it again.”
Seen them live?: Once.
Band: Shiny Toy Guns
Favorite song(s): Waiting, Frozen Oceans, When Did This Storm Begin, Don’t Cry Out, Shaken, Jackie Will Save Me, Blown Away.
Favorite Album: We Are Pilots
Favorite Lyrics: “This is the first day of the rest of our lives, ‘cause no one truly lives or dies.”
“We’re the dreams you’re believing.”
“Like a bullet meant to be shot, you’re the target dead on the spot. When I focus, I never miss. It starts with a kiss.”
“You’re waking up a part of me I’ve never known, and I’ve never felt, so invincible.”
Seen them live?: Four times.
Band: The Hush Sound
Favorite song(s): You Are The Moon, The Artist, Carry Me Home, Echo, Out Through The Curtain, Medicine Man, A Dark Congregation, Molasses.
Favorite Album: Like Vines
Favorite Lyrics: “You don’t see what you possess, a beauty calm and clear. It floods the sky and blurs the darkness, like a chandelier All the light that you possess is skewed by lakes and seas. The shattered surface, so imperfect, is all that you believe.”
“The streets were flooded and in the tides were pessimists, so I just dove right in. I felt at home, I felt alive, I felt that I fit in, so I’ll just keep dreaming.”
“In the night light, we still shine bright.”
“Our breath rose in the cold like a hundred souls escaping. Save me, I am swallowed by the guilt of this. You’re gone, sleeping in the dust, we will not let time erase us.”
Seen them live?: Four times.
Band: Chiodos (w/ Craig Owens)
Favorite song(s): I Didn’t Say I Was Powerful, I Said I Was A Wizard, Two Birds Stoned At Once, To Trixie And Reptile, Thanks For Everything, There’s No Penguins In Alaska, The Undertaker’s Thirst For Revenge Is Unquenchable (The Final Battle).
Favorite Album: All’s Well That Ends Well
Favorite Lyrics: “Attention, all of my worst critics who were once the best of friends, you’re all just crows on the power lines.”
“My love was my decay.”
“And all the world’s a stage. I existed because I dreamed, and well, I dream no more. I’ve given up on the entire human race.”
“I’ll show you how to really move.”
“I’ve been hiding in this bed for weeks from this. Throats raw from screaming and I haven’t said a word. The sky is calling, and the stars, they point to this.”
Seen them live?: Twice.
